nothing special just want tell a story

[EmmaEmma 2]

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When I was 14, my biological father raped me. No one knows what happened, I don't even know what sex or rape was at the time.

When I realized what was going on, I felt like I had lost the time to scream or cry or do anything. So I did nothing but cut ties with my biological father. I have kept it a secret for years. I always want to leave home and go far away. So as soon as I needed to go to university, I came to Denmark. 8000 kilometers from home.

After years of study and hard work here, I have a good life job and everything. But I have this sexual problem. It only excites me when I imagine I'm a prostitute getting raped or forcing me to have sex or gangbang or something like that. I don't know if it has anything to do with my childhood trauma. I have depression all this year, but it's one thing I never mentioned to my psychologist. I don't know why I just never thought I need to tell her.

Last year I met a guy from Annoncelight that I could talk to for some reason. So he became the only one who knew my secrets and my dark side. He was in a bad relationship for 8 years. He told me that he and the woman he lived with had talked many times broke up. So he left her with me and we started dating and moved in together.for about a year.things are fine.I have depression but I have had it for years so I have a way to deal with it.

I came home from school one day last month and he and his luggage were gone. He just disappeared. He wrote me a message saying for he and his ex's children he can no longer be with me. He felt that I was not part of his family. It's fair. For children is the reason I can accept. I also asked him if he had any future plans. He said he would get help from his parents and would soon get his own apartment.

But I only found out two days ago that he actually went back with his ex. He has moved directly from me to her. I asked him how she could possibly accept him back. They hate each other very much. They couldn't speak for a really long time. She was angry that he started a new life so soon after her. I don't understand how she could possibly accept him back.

He told me he told her everything about Annoncelight, everything he couldnt be honest with her in those 8 years. But my secret was also part of the story he told her.

I don't know how I feel now. My depression got worse after he left. Now I feel like I'm going crazy.

So far his mom and he threatened me 3 times.if i dont shut up like they would do something to make sure I had to leave the country. I feel like I have to say it all out, but I can't talk to anyone in real about it.

it's all my fault 

i shouldnt trust him

its all my fault

Redigeret 12. Marts, 2022 af EmmaEmma

[mester4u 963]

Without knowing both sides of the story, he sounds like a real ass to me. I would say "forget about him", but it's hard when he is threating you.

It's hard when someone you trust, suddenly turns back on you.

[menor79 21]

You have to get back, that experience you just had, just gave you more wisdom. Both good and bad stuff. Now you have to pickup youself and brush of the experience, take the good part and move on. In denmark we have an expression "You have to get back on the horse, else you will never learn to ride it", same thing with life. It's just very hard, and hard to move on.. but remmember you are not alone and you have many more people to find. And to trust again you must, there are good people out there.

[EmmaEmma 2]

mester4u skrev, for 13 minutter siden:

在不了解故事的双方的情况下，他对我来说听起来像是个真正的混蛋。我会说“忘记他”，但当他威胁你时，这很难。

当你信任的人突然背叛你时，这很难。

the thing they are using to threat me is part of me.

but beside that i am a good person.

it feels he never know me as a person.

i am just seasoning from his boring relationship.

now i am boring him so he just find a way back to his old life

that make me really sad and feel stupied

[EmmaEmma 2]

menor79 skrev, for 24 minutter siden:

You have to get back, that experience you just had, just gave you more wisdom. Both good and bad stuff. Now you have to pickup youself and brush of the experience, take the good part and move on. In denmark we have an expression "You have to get back on the horse, else you will never learn to ride it", same thing with life. It's just very hard, and hard to move on.. but remmember you are not alone and you have many more people to find. And to trust again you must, there are good people out there.

i understand everything its just hard to put myself together

[Claesen 613]

First of all its not your fault don't ever think or belive that.. 

It could never be your fault that he's is an ass.. The big problem in trusting other people is that you never no what happens in there head. But thats a chance we all have to take to make relations. 

 

Its not your fault, that your dad did those things to you in your chiledhood it was him there was wrong and an adoult person who knows it was bad.. 

Don't take this the wrong way but I think you could use to talk whit a professionel psycolog or something like that we all can need som help. 

 

Best luck Claesen 

[Cowboy2020 3]

The stuff that you are dealing with really should be talked over with a professional. Dont get my wrong. I think that you are very brave for writing this

It seems to me, that you are in pain because you miss this person (who went back to his ex wife).

It seems to me that this is the biggest issue right now. And that getting over him is problebly the best thing here. You cant forget him but you can learn that life can go on without him. And it will get easier with time. Sometimes it is not possible to have the one that you want but life will go one right.

Redigeret 12. Marts, 2022 af Cowboy2020

[Guest Grydeskeen]

We Can all comes  with good advice, but we are not professional, so you have to find someone you can talk with. I am not a believer, but I have one time needed help, and talk with a priest, and, just to talk and hear you self saying the problems, can help.

My advise to you will be, get help. Talk with a priest, talk with a person in a woman crisis centre, you can find professional people in , Reden ( in Copenhagen) , at Blå kors ( bule cross ), Kirkens korshær`s varmestuer. All this places there are no person how will write or report anything, it is anonymous.

I hope the best for you, and know that you will bee fine, becaus you have done the hardest part, you have see the problem, and started to talk about it, and that is the hardest part, to recognise the problems.

[AalborgLook 5215]

For real... det er spam. 

[AB455 3118]

EmmaEmma skrev, for 4 timer siden:

it's all my fault 

i shouldnt trust him

its all my fault

No! 

To trust a person is not a fault, is a gift. When you are not trusted back, or isn't respected or abused when it is not you there is something wrong with. But it is you that suffer and for that reason you should speak to someone who is truly caring. Like others I will recommend a professional, because they actually care and because they can actually help you.

[EmmaEmma 2]

AalborgLook skrev, for 2 timer siden:

For real... det er spam. 

i guess you are the type of man only cares how deep girl can suck your dick in

 

[mystx 109]

EmmaEmma skrev, den 12.3.2022 at 10:05:

the thing they are using to threat me is part of me.

 

EmmaEmma skrev, den 12.3.2022 at 09:05:

So far his mom and he threatened me 3 times.if i dont shut up like they would do something to make sure I had to leave the country.

If you have legal residence in Denmark I don't see how these people could interfere with that. It seems their threats are pretty baseless. If your residence is depending on living with him, then that is going to be a problem no matter what.

It might be worth the money to see a lawyer - you should be able to explain your situation and get a solid idea of your legal standing without running up more than an hour or so.

[EmmaEmma 2]

mystx skrev, for 4 timer siden:

 

If you have legal residence in Denmark I don't see how these people could interfere with that. It seems their threats are pretty baseless. If your residence is depending on living with him, then that is going to be a problem no matter what.

It might be worth the money to see a lawyer - you should be able to explain your situation and get a solid idea of your legal standing without running up more than an hour or so.

humm

i am live here because i have a job.

but you are right i am planning talk with a lawyer about it.thx

 

 

[Lady Cherie 5801]

Kære EmmaEmma

Jeg er total idiot til engelsk, men jeg har alligevel stavet mig igennem dit indlæg, og jeg håber på at du kan se igennem med min måde at udtrykke mig på.....jeg er verdensmester i , ironiske indlæg, som jeg ikke altid selv syntes er sjove, jeg håber dog jeg ikke rammer det i dag med det her indlæg...

Jeg skriver til dig på dansk, for jeg vil ikke kunne gøre mig forstålig på skriftlig engelsk.

Vi 2 piger er i branche hvor vi hver dag ...måske ikke hver dag, for vi er måske ikke på job, hver dag, men vi hører altid,: jeg kommer igen, vi ses.... osv...vi ser måske de mennesker, som vi har delt vores kroppe med, psykke med, tanker, mail med, mennesker der går ind og ud af vores liv, men vi hører igen og igen....jeg kommer igen!

Gør vi det?

Hvis jeg så alle dem der har sagt det til mig, så var jeg ikke andet end knogler, skindet slidt af, nej du gør ej....

Nogle af ens gæster holder man rigtig meget af, når man ser de går andre steder hen føler man et lille stik....mmm

Man lærer hurtigt at sige PYT..

Når man lærer nogen i denne brance at kende af andre piger, så er de der...men pludselig er de der ikke mere....man siger....mmmm...bliver lidt trist og tænker hvor er hun?.......når men ....PYT

Når man har en kærste....så elsker man.....ååååååååååååh man elsker....man er ved at dø...ved at skrige, hvis vedkomne er væk fra en...jeg vil dø uden ham! går han så dør jeg...men som andre før ham er han væk en dag....og suk...PYT

Hvis ens forældre svigter en ens mor, ens far ikke er far eller mor, men kun er far eller mor på dna,en...hvor er så den mor eller far der skal lære mig, at der er nogen, der kan holde om mig?

trøste mig, at der findes trøst? At der findes kærlighed? at der findes nogen som man kan stole på? som ER der?

Er det Pyt til alle?

For hvert et svigt, for hvert et menneske der går ud af ens liv, ....for hver en tåre....så siger man til sig selv...det skal ikke gøre ondt igen.

EmmaEmma du har kun dig selv, tag fat i dig selv, stol på dig selv, gør dig selv stærk.

Hvis du har brug for det, er du velkommen til at skrive til mig. på mail, ikke over PM.

Jeg er nemlig heller ikke god til at sige PYT

HEXEKRAM....for det har du brug for!

 

[MortenJ 13]

多麼無聊的故事，你來過我兩次後我沒有表現出來你是非常甜美和美麗的亞洲女孩希望你能再次找到愛